Talk about our future like we had a clue.

In th end? Whats all these? Hah.

"If it makes you happy, do it. If not, then dont."

I'll be more than glad to know that somehow, I was able to help you feel better. I know I may not be a good friend because of some priorities issue, and I know that I may not always be around for you, say when you needed a friend. But for as long as I can help when you need one, I will. I cant promise that I'll always be there because I know better, but just know if you need a listening ear, I'll be more than glad to lend you one. I think thats what I do best. Hehehe, I think! :B

I hope you'll feel better since all these are really draining th shit out of you. Do takecare of yourself & like Ive said, if changes is not possible, just adapt. For as long as you can endure, just do okay. You'll reap what you sow one day. All these perseverance will pay off one day, I hope.

Maybe you were right. We dont deserve each other eh?
Scary how things change when you least expect it. Sigh.

I dont know why Im drawn to you. Could you be th other one so we'd equal two?

Immortals with Syafiq yesterday. Then quick dinner with his family.

To summarise, I love yesterday. Love how he behave, love how we behave. I just love everything.

Thank you, sayang melayang! ♥

My day sucks.

Reporting for work on a Sunday, only to be greeted by dogs barking, covered in sweat pretty much summarize my morning. That sucks. Lack of sleep = cranky mode on & heavy rain, made my afternoon suck-er. Th fact that whatever that have been planned & it didnt happen at all, made my night sucked even more. Hah, what a joke. For once, I thought, can it get any worse than this?

And where do I begin? I have to admit, I was pretty much disappointed with whatever that happened earlier on. We could have made it for th movie, if only you had siap like you said you will. So much for meeting at 6 when youre still getting ready when youre supposed to be ready already & just pick me up. Then again, whats new eh? Youre forever underestimating everything. As expected, we couldnt make it on time for th movie. First time? No. Then again, you tried. Went to Marina Square, only to discover that th timing is kinda off & there, back again to what it was initially. I guess you were kinda mad, saying that Im troublesome & all. I know you know what youre doing, but Im never taking th risk. Never. It only takes 1 "check" & if youre still out, in you go. Worth it? No. Yes, youre probably 'sacrificing' for me, but really, dont be silly. Id rather you dont and do whats right.

And here we go again, being all unhappy and everything. It got me rather upset when you told me to just "find my friend & meet them" instead, just because things didnt go as planned. And youre being even more ridiculous when you decided to just send me home. Really? An hour plus on th bike, riding through th rain, only to send me home? How ridiculous can you be? Tsk. I swear at that very moment, th urge to just walk away once & for all, was really over-whelming. Because I really hated being treated that way. First time? No. But as always, I just held it all in. Then, you tried being nice, asking me if Ive eaten, etc. No response, simply because I was still pretty much upset with everything.

Halfway through th journey home, it started pouring heavily. Pulled over at th nearest bustop, only to proceed minutes later cause it seemed okay to go on since its not pouring as heavily as before. How wrong were we, because it started pouring again. So there we go, rode through th heavy rain, accompanied by lightnings every now and then, all th way to Boon Lay. However, I have to admit. I love how you'll always tell me to slip my hands underneath your shirt & hug you tight, so that I wont get so cold, just like th other time. But I was still shivering, obviously. Better than nothing, yes? So yeah. By th time we reached, we're both drenched. Still, you did try to make it up to me by buying me food to munch on & everything. Showered & dozed off. Thank you, nevertheless.

So, I guess it wasnt that bad afterall. Could have been worst, I swear. At least hes doing something about it now, instead of being so egoistic about anything & everything. And thats a yay, yes? Haha. Well, as long as youre trying, Im staying. Simple as that.

Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to love you, doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have.

Didnt really have a good Monday morning. Head was hurting so bad due to migraine, and th fact that things between me & Syafiq got rather complicated was not helping either. To me, its always th littlest things that matters more & obviously, its usually these littlest things that will affect me more than anyth, which is what happened that morning.

As usual, all texts sent to him were ignored & I thought, hes totally ignoring me until god knows when, because I have to admit. When it comes to not giving a fuck & ignoring people, hes really good at it, which sucks big time for me. So yeah. Surprisingly, he called late in th afternoon, assuming that I was working & wanted to fetch me I guess. And since I took leave because of that throbbing headache, he decided to catch a movie. To be honest, I was taken aback because he was being all nice & everyth. Nevertheless, we still went ahead with th plan. Had dinner @ Wendys, followed by movie @ JP. After th movie, while we're just walking arnd JP, he randomly asked me if I wanted to get any chocs & of course, I did. How random, yet sweet can he be? Hehehe. Rare moments eh? HAHA. Went over to his crib after that to finish our dinner. Had "storytelling" session with his mum & sister, regarding their trip to Shanghai. Nothing much & not long after that, head home.

In all honesty, Im glad that youre still around, despite th countless times that I told you to leave or said that Im gonna leave, at th spur of th moment. I know what a mess I can be at times, forever emotional about th littlest things, but please, dont give up on me. I know Im not perfect & Im not th best that you can ever have either. But Im still trying. And thats what Ive been doing from th start right?

I want to explore, go to places & do so many things with you. I really do. I just hope that one day, we will have th chance to do that. InsyaAllah.

Nevertheless, thank you so much, love.

Henderson Waves down.

USS, Bungee Jumping @ Clarke Quay, Wild Wild Wet one day, yes?

Thank you for th day, love.

So, I took leave today to attend Syafiq's POP, though theres a birthday celebration for my kid today. It should pretty much tell you who matters more, I guess? Haha.

So, th plan to check out C&M with Dayana was cancelled last minute, cause she had smth on & couldnt make it. So, Yana & I decided to watch a movie before th whole POP thingy, since I was so bored at home. We watched In Time @ Jurong Point & th movie was awesome, really. Had early dinner @ LJS, while waiting for Syafiq's mum.

Whats there to be said?

Im so proud of you, my firefighter! ♥