Monday, May 31, 2010
Im in th process of doing what Im suppose to do. But I know that somehow, I will regret making that decision & maybe halfway, go against it. But nevermind. We'll see how things goes. Maybe I will succeed & maybe like before, I will not. And to you, millions of apologies cause once again I didnt keep my words. But I know its not really my fault cause you made me do it. Im very tired of your stupid ego shit & you being secretive about what youre feeling. I really am tired. I dont wanna keep guessing anymore. I dont wish to imagine that you even cared / keep hoping when its clear that you dont. Action speaks louder than words, you see. Ive always longed for you to just show / prove to me that you really do care. But unfortunately, I guess you just dont. Sigh. Okay bye.
When you gonna stop breaking my heart? Labels: It hurts so bad
23:13
My love, lately I see you just aint with me A distance growing, oh, how can this be? Departing slowly & I dont know how to stop this wind From the way we're going this love is fading away
Nobody knows but I know, yeah, I know They dont see it but I feel it Without you I never will be as strong Oh, I need ya, oh, I need ya
Youre the definition of a life I would be missing, oh We can make this right, dont wanna lose Dont wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side Take all my love, take my soul, my mind Too much to let go, dont wanna lose Dont wanna lose my love
You are my love, dont wanna lose my love
Running in circles, lets get it past the hassle It aint worth and this cant work, oh, baby See my book is filled with so many pages of your memory Lets finish the story, a never ending story
Nobody knows what I know, yeah, I know I know you are, this is not just me Without you I never will be as strong So come on baby, show me
Youre the definition of a life I would be missing, oh We can make this right, don't wanna lose Dont wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side Take all my love, take my soul, my mind Too much to let go, don't wanna lose Dont wanna lose my love
You are my love, dont wanna lose my love You are my love, dont wanna lose my love
Your love, your kiss, you are the guy I love That belongs to me and I cant live without you Dont wanna lose, dont wanna lose my love
Youre the definition of a life I would be missing, oh We can make this right
I cannot live without you by my side Take all my love, take my soul, my mind Too much to let go, dont wanna lose Dont wanna lose, dont wanna lose my love
Youre the definition of a life I would be missing, oh We can make this right, dont wanna lose Dont wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side Take all my love, take my soul, my mind Too much to let go, dont wanna lose Dont wanna lose my love
You are my love, dont wanna lose, dont wanna lose You are my love, dont wanna lose my love Labels: dont wanna lose my love
13:02
As you can see, been working at Toa Payoh for th Philips Carnival Sale for th past 3 days, since Friday. And thankgod yesterday was th last day cause its very tiring, serious shit. Despite th weather being so hot & my legs tired of standing for arnd 9 hours of 3 days straight, I guess it was a great experience though. And I enjoyed working with th people arnd me & stuffs. Hehe. Basically after work, Syafiq, his mummy, Faris, Azmi & I will either go to eat or balek. Then we will just sit arnd chit chat, though Im not th one who did most of th talking. Hahaha. Idk whats th purpose of me writing all these though, so nevermind. Haha. Nevertheless, thankyou for th great time. [:
And anw, I doubt I can do what Im suppose to do. Yes, thats how weak I am. So, since Im th one who chose this path, I guess I have to know what to expect & stuffs. And if anything were to go wrong / anything bad happened, then I cant be complaining cause I was th one who wants it. Though we did sort of 'talk things out' yesterday, I am still doubtful for your words just doesnt tally with your actions. Maybe you just dont want to show it? Or maybe, theres really nth for you to show cause you really dont care? I dont know. But Im glad that atleast, some of th issues had been resolved. It would be better if we did this dari dulu lagi kn? I would have spare myself so much pain & trouble. Haha. But nevermind. Whatever will be, will be. Labels: doubtful, Havent I Always Loved You?, Tired
12:34
Friday, May 28, 2010
22:37
Hello yo. Happy Vesak Day to those celebrating it eh. Hahaha. As usual, was late for school th day before. Somehow, I just cant wakeup early for school anymore. What telah happened, I also not sure. Dahsyat yo. And apparently, Im like wasting my time attending th OA lesson cause its only for 3o mins. After that, long break till th next lesson. Might as well I spend my time sleeping at home kn? Hahaha, but nevermind. Played card games during break. Me likey! Okay, shall not elaborate any further cause nth interesting or fascinating.
And after school, had CAH thingy. Things went as planned & stuffs. Overall, I enjoyed th day. And I finally overcome my fear of _____ in front of crowds abit. Yay, hooray for me. [: Thanks yo korg for th great time. I like. Hahaha. After that, trained back home. And oh, thankyou for th treat. Like suddenly youre so nice like that, so weird. Haha. Okay, thats all for now. Gonna have a long day tmrw. Goodnight people.
& today is th supposedly 43rd. Wow, how time flies. o.O Labels: I like
00:08
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I dont wanna lose my love | Go to post ➜
23:57
Monday, May 24, 2010
Cause Im such a fool for you. :( Labels: down
23:10
If he misses you, he'll call just to hear your voice. If he wants you, he'll say it. And if he cares, he'll show it. If he has thought about you, it will come out of his mouth. If youre on his mind non-stop, he will do anything he can just to see you. If he truly likes you, he wont let anything get in th way & fight back just to keep you in his arms. If not, he cant be worth your time because youre obviously not worth his. Labels: Makes sense
09:34
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Can I be this? Hahaha. ♥ ♥ ♥ Labels: random
02:11
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Mask tak rider tak blade. Hahahaha. | Go to post ➜
Hello wello. Like finally, Ive received th pictures from Ahmad Tan Jiawen. Thanks yo, hahaha. Sayang kau many many. [: So apparently, yesterday we had some mask making thingy during TAC. And macam unfortunately gitu laa kn, Im th one yg kene. Hmph. But nevermind, just go ahead with it. Tak mati anyway. Hahaha. I guess theres nth much to say, so let th pictures do th talking yo.
 Beginning of th masking part. Th feeling nice, cause th water dripping. Hehehe.
 Ahmad Tan Jiawen keep taking pictures. Irritating sungguh. Hahaha.
 I have to wear earphone / earpiece as a form of distraction, cause diorg banyak comment. Tkle carry siol. HAHAHA.
 Almost done I think.
 Kurang asam pnye budak sempat amek gambar. Imagine aku mayat. -_- Macam tk biadap ke? HAHAHA. :P
Itu sahaja nyah. Hahaha. After that masking thingy, somehow my face macam putih sikit gitu. Tepung effect. Hahahahaha. ^^v Thanks yo for th fun laa sangat moments, though it was kinda menyeksa for me to remove th mask bile da kering cause rambut melekat. Naseb baek muke aku tak jahanam. Kalau tak, korg dulu aku carik. Hehehe. And I was so worried that my kening will hilang! Hahahaha. But since maseh ade, just shows that my kening is strong. Hehehe, okay mepek. Okay, thats all yo. Toodloons peepos.
Labels: fun, me likey, School, whatever you like
23:42
Went for a briefing @ Toa Payoh yesterday. Nothing much to elaborate on that cause theres nothing laa actually. Hahaha. Just cant wait for th event itself, which is next week. Woohoo. Had dinner at KFC after that. Thankyou many many to Syafiq mummy for th treat. After that, train-ed back home. Needless to say, Ive enjoyed th day. [:
Will update about th mask-making thingy soon. Still waiting for Ahmad Tan Jiawen to give me th pics. Hahaha, stay tune yo. ^^v Labels: whatever you like
14:09
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
20:29
Saturday, May 15, 2010
YOUR EGO IS SO FUCKING HUGE. Ive said what I wanted & told you what you need to know. I shall mind my own business from now on cause youre seriously not worth my time, since you didnt even take th initiative to find out about what youve done wrong. In other words, this simply means that you dont fucking care. So, why should I even care if you dont right? Having an egoistic person like you in my life can only add misery, not th other way round. So all th best eh. We shall see how can you survive with that stupidly, fucking huge ego of yours. You only cared about yourself anyway cause no one else ever mattered to you. They only existed when you need some company or whatsoever right? Hah. And I wont be surprised if one day, people talks behind your back & dont really like you. You should know better what Im talking about. I seriously hope that all that has been happening for th past few days can atleast knock some sense into my head. Please make me realize that Ive been a very stupid girl for th past few years & hopefully, I wont repeat that stupid mistake again. I really have no idea what th fuck have I done wrong, that I have to be treated so unfairly. And I can still be so naive & gullible to believe all his lies. What a loser I am. :(
If I knew it would hurt this much, I wont even want to be with you in th first place. But to err is human & I guess, this is th mistake Ive made. No, I dont regret my past cause in th midst of all th pain, there are some beautiful & happy memories too. But right now, I guess there are more pain compared to th happy ones. Sigh. & I know what a contradiction I can be cause one moment, I claim that youre th suckiest & I hate you th most & yada yada. But I know better that deep down, theres no such thing as hating you cause you know that I love you th most. But sad to say, people change & th changes they made could actually cause misery to others. And thats what you did to me. Theres so much things that Im wondering now, that I would love to know. But Ive known you long enough to know what I should expect if I were to ask you. Therefore, Id rather keep it to myself. I guess I will stop blabbering now cause it wont make any difference anyway since theres no way that you would even care. If loving you hurts this much, Id rather let you go. And I will do just that. See how weak I am? Please give me th strength. Thankyou.
P/S You'll be sorry that Im not around. Labels: Starting Over
21:18
Crapping with Baby Ele | Go to post ➜
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Kiud miud kn kite? Hahahaha. ^^v Labels: nothing better to do
01:33
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Yeayo meayo. Yesterday was awesome tahap max cause pergi ______-ing again. Aku suke many many! Hahaha. School ended at 12 gitu, cause teacher got smth on in th afternoon. Therefore, th afternoon lesson was cancelled. And basically, I just wasted my time going to school yesterday cause I reached there arnd 10 plus when lesson actually starts at 8. Biase jugak, overslept. Hehehe. And then, did nth during lesson other than watch movie. Therefore, I decided to just sleep since th movie doesnt interests me. Waste time nk mampos kn? But nevermind.
Met Baby Ele at Taman Jurong Superbowl to so-called fetch her laa kn, since she got dunno what bowling thingy. Best or what? Like finally gitu I saw Elly, who is a friend of mine but tak pernah jmpe pn. Hehehe. And woo, budak Dover ade a few yg boleh tahan eh. Hahaha. Bus-ed to Lakeside, then trained to Bugis. And standard jugak, dalam train aku tido. Best laa tido. Hahahah.
Reached Bugis some time later. Went to ____ there. Idk what th name is, therefore I just leave blank okay. Basically, everything there sucks. Be it th service or th food & drinks or th shisha itself. Serious shit. Cume th atmosphere je not bad. Feeling feeling arab laa konon. Hahaha. So we settled th bill & stuffs, then berambos.
Since maseh tk puas, we tercampak laa pulak pat Pyramid. I like! Hahaha. Everything there is th oppposite laa obviously. Segale-galenye nice. Hee. Had Watermelon on th rocks & Rose flavoured shisha. Yessy, we took 2. Padahal cume ade 4 ekor kambeng je pat situ. Maut pe kite? Hahahah. Yang maut diorg, bukan aku. Smoke smoke till our head spins right round right round, smpai aku muntah abit. Best dohhh~ And aku pnye belo da pening tahap max smpai bbual pn tk btol. Hahaha. Said to Ateeqs, " Kpale aku pusing mcm goh seng." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ Buat lawak nyeh? Hahaha, mepek siol. Lu diam sudah eh Baby Ele, ni bkn amek dari kamus mane mane. Aku creative dok, pndai create word sndiri. Hahahha. [; Had some camwhoring session & standard jugak, mepek sume kua. Hahahaha. Blah blah blah. Arnd 9 plus gitu off we go balek. Thanks eh korg for th great time. Thankyou also Ateeqs & Shaypa for you know I know. Heee. :D
Labels: me likey
17:54
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
 I believe you have no bloody idea how fucking difficult this is for me & how much it hurts for me to let you go. But nevermind, I will try my hardest. Cause theres aku no way aku akan ludah then jilat balek. (Y) Labels: Im sorry but this wasnt easy
15:05
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Belated birthday present from Irfan. Hahaha, thanks nyeh. Though it doesnt really look like me, except for th eyes. Heheheh. Nevertheless, me likey~ [: Labels: present
17:35
Monday, May 10, 2010
Dating tak mating with Baby Ele | Go to post ➜
 Yoha~ Hahaha. School ended quite early just now, since th last lesson was cancelled for dunno-what reason. So, Baby Ele & I decided to go movie-ing. Baby Kerb didnt join cause she wanna balek, tdo. Hahahah. So nevermind. Planned to watch th 125o time slot but tk sempat, so ended up watching th 1415 time slot. Th movie is fucking nice I tell you. Serious shit. Must watch! Tkkn menyesal. Hee. And in case youre wondering what movie Im talking about, its Ip Man 2. Hee. There are more nice upcoming movies that I wanna watch. Jom jom jom! :D
Walk to Marina & jalan jalan. Sempat jugak aku maen bnde machine bodoh yg ade byk mainan tu. Hehehe, didnt get th round Elmo though. Sadding. But nevermind, atleast I got th pink care bear & tiny Donald Duck. Thanks to Baby Ele. Hehehe. Makan at Mac & after that, duduk jap by th Esplanade situ. Arnd 7 gitu, off we go.
Sumpah I was fucking tired cause I was deprived of sleep. Thanks to th school assignment that has been eating up my time. So, I ended up sleeping while standing in th train. But magically when I reached home, th sleepiness is gone. Wow, Im so amazed. o.O HAHAHAHA. Bye people. Labels: movie
20:51
Sunday, May 09, 2010
IGNORE ALL TH BULLSHIT IVE POSTED BELOW CAUSE I DONT FUCKING MEAN IT AT ALL! FUCKYOU VERY MUCH CAUSE YOURE A FUCKING LIAR! YOURE A FUCKING JERK! I DONT WISH TO ELABORATE FURTHER CAUSE IM FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW. AND YES, I FUCKING HATE YOU! YOU CHEATED ME OF MY FEELINGS! YOURE USING ME ALL THIS FUCKING WHILE! YOUR 'I LOVE YOU'(S) ARE JUST PLAIN BULLSHIT! AND IM A FUCKING IDIOT TO BELIEVE ALL YOUR FUCKING SHIT! DONT EVEN BOTHER ASKING ME WHAT TH FUCK HAPPENED CAUSE YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER! THANKS ALOT EH. AKU SAYANG KAU BANYAK BANYAK SIOL. TAK CUKUP KN KAU SAKETKN HATI AKU DARI DULU? SUKE KN BUAT KEJE GINI? SESUNGGUHNYE KAU MEMANG DASAR SIALAN. KNNCCB! THOSE WHO KNOW NTH ABT THIS, JUST SHUT TH FUCK UP! GET THIS STRAIGHT. AKU BENCI KAU TAHAP MAX! MARK MY WORDS! Labels: FUCKYOU
04:18
 Sometimes when we fight, I think maybe I should just let you leave & push you out of my life. But I dont decide, cause I know that I just cant survive without you. And I know inside I never let you go cause Im sure youre th one, even through th rain its clear, youre th one I want. And no matter how we fuss & fight, you should always know. I just cant stop loving you.
♥ ♥ ♥ Labels: Th only exception, Ure like a tattoo that I cant remove
03:42
 Thankyou.
How come you act like this, like you just dont care at all? Still, its not suppose to hurt this way. D': Labels: It might kill me.
02:09
Friday, May 07, 2010
Idk what th fuck do you want from me. But first, I guess I must thank you for all th hurtful things that you said to me moments ago. If your aim was to make me saket hati or whatever shit, congratulations. You have succeed. :D To get that kind of bullshit from someone who matters alot to me which is you, is really smth I did not expect. Not in th publicity of everyone else, atleast. But whats done cant be undone right? So yeah, thanks alot for it was greatly appreciated. It seems like you do enjoy letting your imagination run wild & accuse me of smth I never did eh? Just what is it that I did or with me that always make you feel or react that way? Seems normal to you cause I doubt you even care. But its fucking unfair to me. When will you stop being so cold. I hate this fucking attitude of yours. And you should know cause Ive told you before that I really hate it. But nth have changed it seems. So, whatever. I am fucking down now, serious shit. I must be a weakling, since small matters like that can affect me this much. What can I say? Its all redundant cause you can never stop hurting me unless I no longer have any feelings for you. Tsk, forget it. Just say whatever you like. But I love you still, thats for sure.
♥ Labels: It hurts so bad.
22:49
Thursday, May 06, 2010
Sometimes I wish that you would care more. Is that too much to ask for? :/ Labels: Things that I missed
18:09
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Cause its love that we share | Go to post ➜
21:40
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Hello nyah. Hahahah. Went _____-ing with Baby Ele, Baby Kerb & Baby Hip yesterday. Mcm finally gitu laa kn. Hahaha, we know only aje eh. Me likey! :D Actually, aku tk tau ape motive aku tulis ni sume. Hahaha, I wanna blog laa obviously. But mcm tkd pape yg boleh di-blog kn nyeh. So, I guess smpai di sini saje je. Bile bile klau free nnt org update nyah. Hee, toodloons peepos. Labels: whatever you like
22:37
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Cause youre irreplacable | Go to post ➜
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