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Friday, July 30, 2010

Drama & Dialogue In The Dark | Go to post




Had a great week in school cause its all about drama. Rehearsal was fun & Im so glad that th drama presentation is already over. All th groups did great, with interesting stories. Yay! Hopefully all our efforts will be worth it.
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After school, bus-ed to Ngee Ann Poly cause theres this Dialogue In The Dark thingy, where we will get to experience how it feels like to be blind. Th tour was very interesting & will be an amazing experience for us people cause know we know how it feels like to be visually impaired. And I guess its not a fun thing to be visually impaired cause you have to rely only on your other senses in order to communicate with others. Therefore, treasure & appreciate whatever ability that you have now.
Haha, kay tu part mcm paham but seriously. Hehe. After that, bus-ed home & I swear th journey was so fucking long & I was alrdy freezing in th bus. But theres nth that I could do anyway right? Hahaha. Another busy week next week. All th best yo.

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Saturday, July 24, 2010

Dance & Movie | Go to post




The Ladies

The Guys

Yesterday was th day where we had our dance assignment performance. Everything went well I guess, other than th fact that I kinda messed up a few steps. Hahaha, but nevermind. Overall, it was great & I enjoyed it. Other groups did awesome too. So interesting.
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Planned to watch Blood Pledge with these people, but end up we watched The Crazies instead. Th movie was fucking awesome & thrilling, I tell you. Must watch! Seriously. Takkan menyesal. Hahaha. After that, went Mac since Ateeqs gonna do her project. Lepak & stuffs, then off we go.
Ohya, I saw a human Chicken Little yesterday. Hahahahaha. And another thinng that I learnt yesterday is, watch what you say & be careful of what you wished for.
*kening updown*

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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Cause th hardest part is letting go. | Go to post


& I'll miss everything about you.
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23:12

I dont wanna lose my love | Go to post


Need to get my heart to believe that its over.
Thanks.

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22:15

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Hurts so bad :'( | Go to post


IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH.

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16:35

Happy? Not even close. | Go to post

SO UNHAPPY.

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01:41

Out with Elly & Ateeqs :D | Go to post






Had a great day.
Firstly, I love th S&W lesson cause I sweat alot which means, I may lose fat. Hehehe, best or what. Tiring but fun, overall. Nothing much during school hours other than th fact that there was a spot check conducted & sadly, I failed 3 parts. Haha, monitress tercontoh sungguh aku ni. Shall sort it by end of this week.

Trained to Toa Payoh to meet with Ateeqs, cause we planned to watch 9 Temples. Like finally gitu right? Been wanting to watch this seh. Elly was there too. Pantat diorg cause earlier on, Elly texted me saying that she couldnt make it. Check check diorg pakat. Pantat, cheat my feelings. Bus-ed to Shaw Plaza I think, then blah blah blah. Hahah. Th movie was okay laa, kinda disappointing though cause its not as scary as I thought it would be. Stakat ade banyak terkejut only. But nevermind. After that, went lepak & stuffs. Ateeqs kurang ajar go record a video of me, which I think sounds like a mak nenek. Hahahahaha, I didnt know I can talk that fast. Tsk. Overall, enjoyable day.
Not forgetting, Ateeq's important card stuffs tercicir just now. Sadding. Hopefully dapat jumpe cepat eh. Hee. Thanks anyway for th day.
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00:12

Sunday, July 18, 2010

I wish you knew | Go to post


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19:08

Why does it have to be this way? | Go to post


I miss everything about you.
But Im trying hard not to layankan all these thoughts. Why oh why?
:(

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01:46

Friday, July 16, 2010

Oh yeah | Go to post


One performance / presentation down. Two more to go.
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16:04

Birthday Boys | Go to post


Happy belated birthday & birthday to Hafiz & Syamil.
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01:34

Thursday, July 15, 2010

:( | Go to post


Everything will be alright.

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23:07

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Its not suppose to feel this way | Go to post


Cause as much as I want it, th fact that it was not like how / what I expected it to be makes me have second thoughts about everything. Things are so different now, really. Maybe its just me & my expectations?
Yeah I know, its not suppose to feel this way. But I alrdy did.
How like that?
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23:11

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Whatever | Go to post


Hello wello. Like finally, Im done with th 3D art assignment. Now I can finally heave a sigh of relieve. Thanks to Shiykin & Syafiq for helping, once again. You saved my day! Hahaha, okay lame. Still, that doesnt mean that things are going to be easy for me now, cause I still have assignments to hand up every friday for th upcoming weeks. Leceh much? But nevermind.

So many things have been happening for th past few days which have been testing my patience & well, made me sad / down / everything that has got to do with it. Not again right, I know. But nevermind, shall not mention it since its a thing of a past anyway. Hopefully, I'll be strong enough to endure whatever shit that will happen to me in th future, seriously. Something have been hinting me about something, so I guess I'll just think thoroughly before making any decision so that I will not regret anything. Cause Im sure if all these are going to continue, I may just go mad someday. Theres a limit to everyone's patience, you see. Okay, enough about it. I dont see th need to blog about anything else cause in th first place, who cares anyway? Hahaha.
Last but not least, cheer up Baby Ele! Tkmo sad sad okay, laki mcm gitu seriously tk gune. Just take your time to heal okay?

Cause one day, Im gonna say goodbye.

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01:16

Monday, July 05, 2010

Crying is beautiful | Go to post


I surrender to my broken heart. Its all that I can do.
D':

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Saturday, July 03, 2010

Shopping mopping | Go to post

Alamak blurr. Hahaha.


Hello wello. Had a great time yesterday, shopping with friends.
Firstly, went to Expo cause theres a SALE. Spent few hours there, but end up I bought cosmetics only cause I wasnt sure on what else to buy. Hafiz, Shaypa & Ateeqs bought quite a number of stuffs though. Then, cabbed to Bugis to meet Dayana while Hafiz & Shaypa went to work. Pusing pusing & stuffs, then head to City Hall to carik our stuffs. Bought my shoes at Marina. Hehe, me likey! Like finally. (:
Then, bus-ed to Town to search for other stuffs. In th end, all of us got almost all th stuffs that we wanted. Yayness! Dayana went off after that while Ateeqs & I go mencekik. My sister came soon after & then we train home. Tired yo. Hahaha. But overall, th day was enjoyed many many cause I bought a shoe & a red bag. Yay!
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Happy birthday to my mummy. Stay happy happy always & tkmo marah selalu cause nnt cepat tue. Hehehe. Happy birthday also to sape sape laa yg birthday nari.
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00:39

Thursday, July 01, 2010

My Boo ♥ | Go to post


Just got off th phone with Syafiq. I thought he was already asleep, heh. Anyway, please take a good care of yourself & try not to be so careless anymore okay. How are you gonna play rugby if youre so careless & keep injuring yourself? Have a good rest though, since youve been rather tired ever since your attachment starts. Get well soon, so that you'll be as strong as ever. Hahahaha.
& you know that I love you. Have always do.
See you soon.

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23:35

10 Things Men Wish Women Knew About Them | Go to post


Here’s th standard line on men: We’re simple, straightforward, limited— & usually perfectly happy to leave it there. Why? Because it keeps your expectations of us low. But here’s th single biggest thing women dont get about men: Masculinity is a complicated performance we agree to in order to be seen as men. Unfortunately, that performance is more designed to conceal than reveal us. For instance, its easier and more “masculine” for us to talk about the great sex we had rather than describe the great conversation afterward. So, a woman ends up knowing th male script, but not th man. Here's th 10 things he wishes you knew about him. (in random order)

1. Even Men Like Compliments Every Once in a While
Real guys, or so th story goes, dont need praise. Especially not about girlish things, like if those jeans show off our assets. But th truth is, men enjoy a little well-intentioned objectification. A squeeze of th biceps & a lingering stare when we reach for the top shelf—these remind us of what attracted you to us & appeal to our Darwinian sense of selectivity (i.e., what keeps you choosing us over the other monkeys). It also makes it OK, even desirable, to send a little objectification your way, too. And just to be clear, the praise doesnt need to be physical. In fact, its important that women commend those things masculinity tends to belittle, like if we’re good cooks or get passionate about foreign films. Tell us too, when we’ve been a good father, a caring son or a helpful husband. Watch how much faster th toilet gets cleaned.

2. We Are Brutally Honest Because We Care
We know that, at times, tact can be the only four-letter word that doesn’t describe us, but women need to rethink their reactions to male candor. Men lie and obfuscate with people they have no interest in. The art of BS—and indulging others with their BS—is how we get through the day. But with you, lucky you, we want to forget all that. We want to tell you why your mother bothers us and how you can solve the problem with your high-maintenance friend. In a relationship, honesty is a young man’s mistake because the longer a man feels punished for it, the more he begins to censor himself. And that’s when you really need to worry.

3. You Should Appreciate Our Reliability
Similar to honesty, a good man demonstrates his commitment to you by showing up. So it’s more than a little irritating to hear about your fascination with the jerk who has mastered the art of illusion: He’s there, but not really. It’s a vicious cycle—the more men feel those guys get the benefits of your time and attention, the more incentive we have to become those guys. And that’s bad for both of you since more of those guys turn your illusion into our delusion.

4. Love Means Never Having to Be Attached at the Hip
We acknowledge the importance of couple time. We’d even go so far as to say that, in the best relationships, love that is asserted each day deepens and extends. Lost in this, however, is the belief that time spent enriching oneself also enriches partnerships. In other words, going on a hiking weekend with the boys does not diminish the bond we share. Like women need the affirmation of their girl friends, guys need the companionship of other men. This kind of solo time will refresh us and we’ll come back with more for you.

5. We Respect You as Females—and Love What Makes You Women
It is sad to say that equality in our times means adopting the worst of both sexes: Men get more sexualized and women can be cruder. And while no fair-minded guy wants women to return to the 1950s sitcom (although coming home to a roast chicken and a stiff drink ain’t bad as a fantasy), neither do we want the elimination of the feminine as a virtue. Don’t be ashamed to hold on to those things that make you different from us, like how you care about smelling nice or reminding us of empathy. That isn’t regressive; it’s just beautiful. To see the exception, read #6.

6. Be the Boss in the Bedroom
Two words: Unleash yourself. Express your fantasies. Use your hands along with your…imagination. Show us who’s boss and give us good directions—you already know we don’t do well asking for them. Your explanations will heighten our intuition and your pleasure.

7. Our First Commitment Is to Ourselves
One of the biggest complaints by women (for the second, read #8) is that men don’t commit. Right or wrong, men are raised to believe that a successful life hinges on self-fulfillment. Relationships, at first glance, seem to impinge on that. They make men nervous that the pursuit of happiness will become the path of missed opportunity. But men do come around to understand that true self-fulfillment depends on fulfilling another. What can you do in the meantime? Take a page from our script on this one and focus on your self-fulfillment, your own passions. This kind of healthy withdrawal will make pursuing you part of our happiness.

8. For Us, Seeing Is Believing
Want to know why men like sports? Pure, measurable success. At the end of the game, no one can dispute the number of touchdown passes or home runs. An athlete works toward a goal and is rewarded with concrete proof of his effort. What is the irrefutable proof of a successful emotional life? Here, the data is less tangible. Men fear endeavors where success is vague because failure seems a likely result. In case you hadn’t noticed, we hate to fail. One way to take the failure out is to become his ally in those pursuits that bring him emotionally alive; his attempt at wholeness there will illuminate the great rewards of an emotional life elsewhere.

9. We May Lose Small Battles, but Always Remember the Wars We’ve Won
How important is putting the toilet seat down if the yard is mowed each week? Does it matter that an item was forgotten at the store when he checked off the rest? If he let the kid go to his friend’s with a stained shirt but made sure to spend time on his science project, is there a point to mentioning it? Women should remember to give credit where credit is due.

10. Fathers Are Just as Important as Mothers
It can seem, at times, that the world elevates the feminine over the masculine and that the lessons men can impart are outmoded or regarded as Neanderthal. But when a bully is picking on your son, your husband showing him how to throw a punch is not nonsensical. Or if your daughter has an athletic talent, his testosterone-fueled guidance may teach her more than just competitiveness. Honoring what men know based on their experiences is just as valuable to the young as the insights of women. Freely sharing his wisdom prevents imbalance, both in us and those we seek to help.

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Yours Truly.

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