So, it has been one week since that I found out about that shit & I think Im doing very well right now. No urge to text him / call him/ whatsoever, no constant thinking about him late at night, etc. Just nothing, which I must say, Im so proud of myself. Hahaha. It was never this easy back then & I have no idea why it is right now. Probably because Ive finally realised what kind of person he truly is & maybe, I just dont want any of these anymore. Lets just hope that it will stay this way, until whenever? Haha.

I used to want you so bad. Im so through with that.

You can spend your life holding on,

or you can show that idiot who broke your heart what he is missing.

Because a smile can hide so much.

Goodbye to you.

I shall be gone~ Hoho.

Ive said what I wanted & told you what you need to know. I shall mind my own business from now on cause youre seriously not worth my time, since you didnt even take th initiative to find out about what youve done wrong. In other words, this simply means that you dont fucking care. So, why should I even care if you dont right? Having an egoistic person like you in my life can only add misery, not th other way round. So all th best eh. We shall see how can you survive with that stupidly, fucking huge ego of yours. You only cared about yourself anyway cause no one else ever mattered to you. They only existed when you need some company or whatsoever right? Hah. And I wont be surprised if one day, people talks behind your back & dont really like you. You should know better what Im talking about.

I seriously hope that all that has been happening for th past few days can atleast knock some sense into my head. Please make me realize that Ive been a very stupid girl for th past few years & hopefully, I wont repeat that stupid mistake again. I really have no idea what th fuck have I done wrong, that I have to be treated so unfairly. And I can still be so naive & gullible to believe all his lies. What a loser I am.

:(

If I knew it would hurt this much, I wont even want to be with you in th first place. But to err is human & I guess, this is th mistake Ive made. No, I dont regret my past cause in th midst of all th pain, there are some beautiful & happy memories too. But right now, I guess there are more pain compared to th happy ones. Sigh.

& I know what a contradiction I can be cause one moment, I claim that youre th suckiest & I hate you th most & yada yada. But I know better that deep down, theres no such thing as hating you cause you know that I love you th most. But sad to say, people change & th changes they made could actually cause misery to others. And thats what you did to me. Theres so much things that Im wondering now, that I would love to know. But Ive known you long enough to know what I should expect if I were to ask you. Therefore, Id rather keep it to myself.

I guess I will stop blabbering now cause it wont make any difference anyway since theres no way that you would even care. If loving you hurts this much, Id rather let you go. And I will do just that. See how weak I am? Please give me th strength.

Thankyou.