Because I know how it feels like to be lied to and th feeling sucks, obviously. And I dont think anyone deserves to be lied to.

Therefore, Im really sorry. Im sorry for bothering more about what youre gonna think of me if I were to tell you th reason honestly. Im sorry that I cancelled it last minute, when I know that everyone is already excited (i think) about this shit.

:(

Well I know when it comes to this, Im never a good friend. Ive never been one, in fact. Eh wait, am I even a friend? Haha. You know, its like expecting / wanting people to be nice to you when on th other hand, you were th one who treat others like shit? Taking them for granted & everything? Yeah.

And I dont know why of all th rest, its you that I feel comfortable with, to apologise to & etc. Yes, we're not that close & I'll never be as close as how you were with th rest. Because somehow, I just feel that I dont fit in. Im forever with my stupid relationship shit & everybody knows if it affects me, it really affects me. And I guess thats just one of th annoying shit that always happen right? And maybe because youre just so easy-going about anything, in spite of all th thinkings that you did, I just felt that youre th most reasonable one. Not saying that th rest are not, but thats just what I felt.

And of course, its nobody's fault but mine. Its because I chose this. Oh well. I guess I'll never be a good friend. Maybe theres just something about me, something about my attitude that will somehow push people away. That sucks, but oh well. Its only life.

*shrugs*