Sadly, that time of th month is here again & I swear Im in fucking pain right now. Miserable much? Theres nth much that I can do to ease th pain cause Ive been like going in & out of th toilet for like belasan times? Its like there something that I want to kluakn from my stomach, yet nothing is coming out. Ended up vomiting for no reason & I guess that my stomach just wanna throw something out, by any means. I still have th urge to go th toilet every now and then, and I have no choice but to just go, even if it means that I'll be just sitting on th toilet bowl, waiting for something to happen for god knows how long.

Obviously, I havent had any sleep since yesterday night cause my gum / th wisdom tooth area was in pain, therefore I cant sleep a wink cause I was kinda affected by it. And around 4-ish plus in th morning, found out that my period came. Though I was happy cause theres no need for me to fast, this is not what I wanted. I know I should have expected it since this always happen to me on my first day of menstruation. But having to suffer / endure it once every month is totally unfair. Not as though th pain was there for a while, but it can drag for hours. Sometimes I wonder why am I th one getting all these when some others can have their period normally? I know this is normal too, but if th cramp that I had was rather mild, then theres nth much to say uh. But mine being kinda severe to th extend that I cant even lie down still for even 5 minutes, like what th fuck can? It hurts so much to th extend that I can just cry while trying to bear with th pain.

Tell me what else can I do, seriously. I did consider trying to go for a check up to see whats wrong, but Im afraid that it will be a waste of money if th doctor only prescribe me with some medicine that I wont eat. Not because I dont want to, but I really cant. Serious shit. Id rather be injected for I-dont-care-how-many-times, rather than having to swallow all those nonsensical medicine. I see no purpose in doing so if whenever I tried, I'll just end up vomiting everything out. And bottomline? I didnt even swallow th pill. -.-

If it will hurt this much, then I dont even want to have a baby in th future. Someone told me that it will hurt more than what Im feeling now. Tsk. And if anyone thinks or feels that im exaggerating, then fuck you. You have no idea what it feels like & you dont know what Im going through. It may seem to you like "Alaa, cramp only". Try being in my shoes & we shall see if you can still smile while your womb area feels like it was being squeezed from th inside, with th muscle or whatsoever contracting continuously. Hah.

I seriously hope that this wont last long, though I know that it will continue for like a few more hours. And I guess theres nth much that I can do, other than to just bear with it. I swear, I hate period cramp more than anything in th world right now. And if theres anything that I can choose not to have in this world, then I'll choose for us females not having to endure or bear with this shit. But I guess on th other hand, it just show how strong we are? Cause Mike told me that guys cant really endure something as painful as this. So yeah? Thanks anyway for trying to cheer me up, though you did not succeed. Haha. See, Im being honest here atleast. Hahaha. I do feel rather paiseh _____ in front of you just now, though not literally. But what telah happen cant be undone I guess?

Nevertheless, The Expandables is fucking awesome. Another must watch movie, provided that youre already above 18. Im not in th mood to like really 'promote' this movie but yeah, just watch laa. Worth your money & time if you like action movie. Im dont really like action movie but seriously, this movie is really great.

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And for once, I think that my mum rocks. Hahaha.

Toodloons peepos.