Tuesday, March 29, 2011 Always remember, pain makes people change. So dont hurt them when you dont want them to change. Can you like just ask yourself, why do you always react negatively when youre mad when it comes to me? For once, can you just like be understanding and just tell me that it doesnt matter and everything's okay & I dont have to feel bad about it or whatsoever. Its not my fault that it happened. I dont even wish for it to happen in th first place. So when it comes to me, why cant you just try to be reasonable and understand? Like youve said, maybe I expected too much from you, which is true. I did because I know that youre capable of doing so. I know how capable you are. Then again, I have to remember ; Just because Im willing to do all these, just because I can endure and go through all these shit & pain, doesnt mean that he can do th same when it comes to me. And Im aware that youre no good for me. Im aware. Youre aware. Everyone knows. But I wonder, why do I even bother to stay? When will I ever know? And most importantly, when will I ever learn?
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "To let go isnt to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isnt winning, and it isnt losing. Its not about pride, its not about how you appear, and its not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts and doesnt leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. Its not giving in or giving up. Letting go isnt about loss, and its not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, and overcome and move on. Its having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It’s learning, experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon again. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It’s realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path, and to set you free." In other words, I cant let go still. Yet. & supposedly 53rd yesterday. I miss you. I miss us. But its gone. MANAGE ME. IM A MESS. ONE LOST & CONFUSED HUMAN. Labels: I miss you, Its not suppose to feel this way, self-destruction |
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