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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

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Ive decided to privatize my blog due to some reasons like privacy among family members, freedom of speech & few others. Might be temporary though, so I shall see how it goes.
And whatever that youve read here, please keep it to yourself. I trust you enough to invite you. Thank you very nice.


I cant say much here but yeah, smth scary yet interesting happened to my sister. Before that, some arguments took place between her & one of my brother which is rather scary yet funny at th same time. Because earlier on, my sister was rather unhappy with my brother regarding something, so she let it all out on her facebook wall. Apparently, she blocked my brothers so theres no way that they can view it right. But she forgot that this brother of mine love to log in his girlf's account & my sister have his girlf in her friend list. So as expected, he log into her account & saw whatever that my sister wrote on her wall. Obviously he was unhappy. Th funny part is, my brother called her from outside & ask her "whats this?". Then my sister look at th screen & said "nothing", run quickly to th room & locked th door. Hahahahaha. So dramatic. But at th moment, its scarier than funny okay. So my brother keep banging th door, etc cause he was fuming mad. My sister told me to call my parents for help & sadly, they didnt answer th phone. So I called my another brother instead. To cut th story short, my parents reached home moments later & as expected, my brother told whatever shit to my parents & my sister got a scolding from father.
I dont really understand my family la actually, cause my father said smth about confiding in them whenever we have any problems or whatever shit, instead of posting it on th net or smth. But have they actually think, in th first place, do they even understand us? Do they even understand whats on our mind? Its like, whats th point of confiding, letting them know whats on my or our mind, when we know better that we're gonna get a scolding or some unnecessary remarks which wont help, at all. So I guess its better to just let it out somewhere, or to someone else. Cause I guess my parents cant be my friend too, as much as they want to.

Continue, my sister cried so hard that her fingers & everything all went numb. So numb that she cant even move both her arms & legs. My younger brother, mother & I was already crying because its just scary to see this happening to her. Both of her fists was clenched damn tightly & her arms were bent, but she can barely move. Okay I shouldnt say much here but thats what happened to my sister & it took us close to an hour to actually make everything normal again cause parts of her body just went stiff & cramp again when some other parts were okay already. And it just repeats that way. Even so, shes still trembling now. Hopefully, everything will be okay in th future & it wont happen again. Then again, unforeseen circumstances like this do happen & I guess we'll just have to expect th unexpected. Thats life anyway right?
Still, I cant imagine if she were to remain that way. Say, no one was around in th house or no matter how hard we tried, she still remain that stiff. I really cant imagine. But thank god, shes fine now & I hope she'll remain that way for a long period of time. Hahaha. No, seriously.
And yeah, theres something else that I found out when this happened to my sister, but I guess some things are better left said. So that way it shall be.
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Now that all these had happened, I just feel that my family is unsafe. Things are really gonna be different for my family in th future. How like that?
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21:37

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

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Trust no one completely. Serious shit.
On th other hand, some things are better left unsaid.
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22:24

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

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Yes, you left. Not me.

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21:36

Friday, December 24, 2010

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Hello wello.
Th day was spent with Syafiq. Our initial plan was to go to Jurong Hill, but he decided to go somewhere else instead. So we went to Little Guilin located at Bukit Batok. I heard of that place before but it didnt occur to me that I will even go there cause Im not sure where its located at. Haha, so yeah. Th place is beautiful cause it made me feel like Im not in Singapore. Hahaha! Kental eh? So, spent some time together & such, then we're off to West Coast Park to catch th sunset. Sempat tau kite feeling feeling amek gambar with th sunset. Hehehe. Not to forget, we climbed th pyramid thingy, etc. And moments later, off we go. Nothing much to elaborate about la actually. Doesnt matter what we did or didnt do, cause its th company that matter.
Towards th end, something unpleasant happened. But nevermind, shall not elaborate much about it. Thanks for th day anyway. Though it might be th last. Heh.
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Will be away to Malaysia for around 3 days. Balek kampong yo. Hoho. Cant wait. Th only sad thing is that there wont be any internet access. Boring much? Oh well, what can I say?
Anyway, might be busy next week. Hopefully by then, my field mentor will be around. 2 weeks of holiday left yet theres quite a number of things to do. Hopefully everything goes well.
Dont miss me. Haha.
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

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Strength isnt about how much weight you can lift. Strength is about how much you can let your heart go through before you say "thats enough".

PLEASE GIVE ME REASONS TO STAY.
Really. Cause not giving up on us just yet doesnt mean that I never ever will.

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11:51

Monday, March 15, 2010

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Yes, I am fucking stubborn.
LIVE WITH IT FUCK.

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14:42

Saturday, January 30, 2010

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I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did.

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Yours Truly.

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