"When infatuated, we are thrilled, but not happy, wanting to trust, yet suspicious. There are lingering, nagging doubts about our “partner in infatuation” and their love for us. We’re miserable when they’re away, almost like we’re not complete unless we’re with them. Its a rush and its intense. Its difficult to concentrate."

Thanks to th SNAPP workshop, Ive been thinking about this a lot. What th speaker said & th presentation really got into my head, cause what they said really does make sense after all. Idk why, I just like talks about topics like relationship, etc cause it really interests me & I guess I do need it since I myself is confuse still with everything. Its always like "I know what I need to do but I dont wanna do it yet cause I believe there'll still be some little hope that can change th situation" kinda thing? It has always been like that. I realise that hope is a good thing, but it can be a bad thing too. Because when you hope, youre expecting something but you might not get it, therefore might end up with disappointment. Know what I mean?

Sometimes I wish that things werent this hard. Then again, I guess it all comes back to me cause Im th one who dont wanna move on. Its not really that I dont want to, but more to I just wanna try & work things out over again. And its simply because Im still hoping. But its really hard to be holding on, when theres no assurance at all. Theres nothing that he did to make me feel secure or to atleast make me feel assured that what Im doing now will be worth it. But then again, who am I to him? That, I have to remember.

Nevertheless, I hate this feeling. Its like Im just losing faith everyday since this uncertainty is just so over-whelming. Uh-oh.

:/