"Was it easy leaving me? Saying all th cute things, then just walking away like it was nothing. Like we were nothing. Like I was nothing."

Its ridiculously annoying how these littlest things never fails to get to me every single time. A call to ask about th whereabouts & when th answer wasnt like what he expected, there. Here comes all th "sudden" cold shoulder & unreasonable-ness, leaving me absolutely clueless about what this shit is all about. Seriously? Its really disheartening to know & to even feel this way every single time. Just when I thought things are fine / normal to be precise, this same old annoying shit just has to happen over & over again.

Really, what is this shit? Whats so hard about speaking your mind & telling me exactly whats in there, instead of telling me this bullshit about 'go and enjoy yourself outside' when you probably dont mean anything you said. Youre insecure / jealous / unhappy / etc? So be it. Why do you have to be so egoistic about it & at th end of th day, Im th one who was being pushed away as th result of your stupid imagination / assumption / insecurity / egoistic shit. And to be honest, Im not really hurt by all these poppycock attitude of his since its really nothing new. But th frustration and disappointment never fails to be arnd. Sigh.

Being angry / unhappy is one thing. But to be posting about it publicly, along with those filthy words that could easily cut me, thats really something. As much as I know how you always are when this happens, it always kills me a little bit more inside. Because words definitely dont have th power to hurt someone, unless th person means smth to you & in this case, since you mean so much to me, just estimate for yourself th emotional pain that youve inflicted on me, over nothing. I'd be more than happy if for once, you think before you speak / act, because at least, it would spare me or others th unnecessary pain, even if you dont mean whatever that you said. But again, who am I?

I really hate how you always take advantage of my weakness. Its really not okay, but whatever. One day, th time may come where you suddenly want to talk to me. But, I probably wont want to anymore.