Hospital bed. Yeap, thats where I was at during th last few minutes of 2011. Didnt get to watch live fireworks this year although I could if I decided not to be here with you, but its okay. Its my choice. Furthermore, whats th point of watching th fireworks when youre so far away from me? I'd rather watch it at th tv, next to you. Just like th National Day.

Done with 2011 & it wasnt an easy year, honestly. But Im glad that Ive managed to pull through all these shits. Not hoping much for this brand new year. As a start, I just hope I could be a better person & learn to do things without expectations. And I'll be more than glad if Ive managed to accomplish it.

On a different note, been spending th night at th hospital so that I could accompany him through th night & assist him whenever he needs it. Nothing hard, but this is really my first time doing all these. Sometimes, it seems like I could have done better than this because I can be really clueless, dont know what to do & things like that. Useless much? I dont even know how to comfort / console him when hes in so much pain, enduring whatever that he needs to, and Im like just standing there watching him. It feels so.. sigh. Whatever that word is. Haha. Right now, theres nothing that I want more than for him to recover fast. There are times where I caught him staring into space, probably thinking about whatever that he dont wish to tell me, as much as I want to know. Its okay. Like Ive said countless of times, things will get better & youre gonna be fine. You will recover, you will heal. Th scars will remain there, but I hope this is a lesson learnt.

And th hardest thing about all these? Is to do it sincerely, without any expectations. At all.