"If it makes you happy, do it. If not, then dont."

I'll be more than glad to know that somehow, I was able to help you feel better. I know I may not be a good friend because of some priorities issue, and I know that I may not always be around for you, say when you needed a friend. But for as long as I can help when you need one, I will. I cant promise that I'll always be there because I know better, but just know if you need a listening ear, I'll be more than glad to lend you one. I think thats what I do best. Hehehe, I think! :B

I hope you'll feel better since all these are really draining th shit out of you. Do takecare of yourself & like Ive said, if changes is not possible, just adapt. For as long as you can endure, just do okay. You'll reap what you sow one day. All these perseverance will pay off one day, I hope.