No matter what, despite all that Ive done for you, it will always go unappreciated.

Whats new? Still, Im taking it to heart because Im so offended by it. I cared, hoping for th best for you. But what did I get in return? Im not even expecting you to care back as much as I cared for you because somehow, I feel that you dont. And when you dont, you really dont. I dont want any "I care but I just didnt show it" shit. Because if you really do, you will show. So, what now?

I was so scared with th fact that most of th people that I know, whom I used to be close with were already dead, because they were involved in a bike accident. So I texted you, reminding you to just takecare of yourself whenever youre riding since all these accidents are becoming quite frequent. But you didnt see th simple reason behind that text, did you? I did what I did, because I care. Its because Im scared th same thing might happen to you. Not trying to curse, but thats just what I felt. Easier said, I just dont want to lose you over this stupid bike accident shit. True that its all written and if its gonna happen, it will happen. But heck, it doesnt hurt to just take an extra precaution to just be careful. But what do I get i return? Just a "Tu dorg pnye psl, I dont want to know" from you. Seriously?

And remember, when you were having fever few days back? You told me you were feeling giddy & asked me to help you massage your head and I did, till you fall asleep. It was not long after that when I realised that youre running a fever, so I did what I could, putting a cold towel at your forehead & covering you up in blanket, just to make sure that your temperature didnt shoot up. I wanted to be there for you, taking care of you while youre sick. But I couldnt because I already had something on. And I dont know why, but I felt bad, when I couldnt be there for you as much as I want to.

Still, I did not forget th fact that you fetched me despite th fact that youre unwell and for that, I thank you & I really do appreciate it.

But it seems that th nice things that you do, doesnt last. Its like Im th one whos trying to make this work, while you on th other hand did try, but its just not enough. I know that you cant love me as much as I love you, and you couldnt do much for me as much as I could for you. Maybe because of one simple reason, that I love and care for you more. And somehow, this just sucks. I do want to be loved, as much as how Im willing to love someone. But.. I really dont know.

You see, its always these little things that we do that means so much, that proves so much. But its also th littlest things that we do, that hurts more than anything else.

You know, for all that Ive done, I just want to be appreciated. Ive done all that I could and maybe, I can do so much more than this. But if all these doesnt seem to mean anything to you, then what else can I do?

If I were to leave one day, its never gonna be because I dont love you anymore. I know that somehow, I will always do. But its because of you. Youre th one who pushes me away.