Its only 4 plus in th morning right now, yet here I am sobbing my heart out. Whatever that Im feeling now just sucks. Everything sucks.

I hate to keep saying this but its like everything that Ive done, it wont ever be enough. You were unreasonably mad at me cause I was late when youre fetching me just now & it wasnt even for hours! I was like only 10 minutes late, yet there you are acting like youve been waiting for me for hours. And why was I late? I was touching up th little book that I made for you, that I planned to give you as your advanced birthday present. And this is what I get in return? Thanks.

You bring me down in front of your friends, maki-ing me over th phone when I was just helping your cousin with something. And theres no need for that sarcasm when you talk to me. Have you forgotten? Im a human too and whatever you said or did just now, it fucking hurts! I literally ignored you, not replying at all when you were talking. And you were unhappy with me because of that as well? You know better that if I start talking back, it wont end. But it doesnt seem to please you too when I did th otherwise. So, what do you want?

And it fucking disappoint th shit out of me, with th fact that you dont fucking care that I WALK HOME ALONE from wherever that I was from just now, at close to 3 plus in th morning! Seriously? I was disturbed by some mats on a bike & I texted you, telling you that I was disturbed. I called. But when did you get back to me? Close to 2 hours later. I dont wish to talk to you nor tell you what happened because Im just fucking upset, but there you are making things more complicated by telling my brother about this. Really love to make my life difficult eh? You know whats gonna happen if my parents were to find out about this and all you said to me was "SERVE YOU RIGHT!"

WOW. I fucking went home late sometimes to spend some time with you since we're both busy and when this happen, thats all you can say? Instead of comforting me, trying to make me feel better, you chose to bring me down over and over again, just because you were unhappy with what happened with us earlier on? Seriously, thanks ah. _l_