You should really learn how to appreciate people and their presence in your life. Seriously. For all th things that Ive helped you with, there was never a time when you even say a simple '"thank you" to me. Am I supposed to be taken for granted? Maybe youre too used to it, thats why. Not that Im being calculative here, no. But I just realised.

Like how you met with an accident th other time. I was there, from th time that I got a call from you, until your friends are done with th things to do to your bike that morning. I got home & showered, and accompanied you again until afternoon because you said you need some company. We werent in th best of term at that point of time because of something and still, I was there. But th moment your friends were around, you totally forgot about me. You forgot that I existed. You just forgot. Yes, I know that they matter more. I know that you love your bike more than anything now. But who was there with you before you had all these? Me!

From th moment where we simply took bus and train to travel, or just walk to wherever that we wanna go, I was there all along. And I was th one who accompany you to wherever you want to go, before you even have all these luxury. I was th one who were there for you, despite all th emotional abuse that you gave me. Easier said, I was there from th start. From th moment where you were nothing & had nothing, to th current you now. And yes, I still remembered every single thing. And what am I in your life now? Just nothing.

True when they say that abandonment can hurt a girl th most, because thats what you gave me. For all th things that Ive done for you, you took it for granted & neglected me in return. Yes, you simply neglected me. You ignored me, you just dont care about me anymore. Any idea th emotional pain that I went through? Any idea how much it hurts, battling with my emotions every single time? Any idea how crazy it drives me at times? How great is that, you tell me? Then again, if you were to suddenly call me and ask for help, I know you know that most probably, I will help you with it. Why? Because all along, I was there, and you know that I always will be. True enough?

Now that youre working, you claim that you no longer have time for me because you are busy. I have to say, youre really good in coming up with excuses, seriously. Too busy until theres not even a minute to text or even reply my text? Bullshit. It clearly shows that you just dont care. Really, its fucking obvious because I know that I just dont cross your mind. Well, who am I anyway right? Haha. And another thing you forgot, I was th one who help you to get this job. And any thanks from you? No.

Today, you made me realise that youre simply not worth it. Like Ive told you, I hate you for all th pain youve caused me. I hate you for always doing this to me. Giving me false hope when you know that you dont mean anything, over and over again. Then again, I guess youre only nice when Im right here in your presence. Other than that, I dont seem to exist right? But on top of all these, I hate myself even more for being so weak. And Im even more mad with myself for letting me go through all these although I know that I deserve even better than this.

As for now, theres one thing that you should know. I will go through hell to forget you, no matter how long it will take. I survived 5 years of hell anyway. So, whats new right?

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