Mirror, mirror on th wall, whos th biggest fool of all? Must be the girl who cant stop crying. Or maybe its th girl who kept on trying.

I think Ive been lying to myself all these while when I said that Im sort of over him? Cause I dont think that I am. Just that I dont think about him as much as I used to, since Ive got so many things to do that will occupy my time. And yeah, we are still friends. Just that th feelings is still there, although it might not be as strong as before. Im not sure how its works for him, but thats just how things are for me. Guess I was good at pretending? Or maybe, Ive learnt not to think about unnecessary stuffs that will make me emotionally disturbed for no apparent reason. Haha. It doesnt matter anyway right cause its th last thing that I should be concerned about. Okay, idk whats th point of writing all these down but yeah, things are not as simple at it seems. But Im still trying.

I honestly look up to strong girls, who can really love someone a lot but is even stronger to let th person go. And I wish I can do th same but it takes time & lots of willpower or determination. And really, as much as I want to, a tiny weeny bit inside of me still hoped that we could somehow mend things & get back to how we used to be, cause I guess thats what made me happy most of th time, excluding th quarrelling part. Though I just cant stand th way he is at times, hes still on my mind when I know that hes not supposed to be there. So I guess that should explain how much he meant to me? Stupid much? Hahaha. But then again, whats past is past. So I guess that thought shall be left there since it belongs in th past & I must do smth about th present. And who knows, we might be together again in th future? In 5 years time maybe? Haha! Okay, shall stop this nonsensical thought. We know better that its simply impossible. Hoho. Poppycock sungguh. So thats about it for now.

Toodloons peepos.

And as for yesterday, happy supposedly 4th anniversary.