Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise.

Its somehow true when people say that time will slowly reveal everything cause for my case, it did. Its only natural that people judge others based on first impression right? And usually, I got negative feedbacks like Im a minah, etc. Its fine with me cause thats what people see me as anyway. They dont know me. So its not my problem if they were to judge me. This is not my point actually, so whatever.

People who actually observe & really observe, will notice that I dont have a lot of friends. Fuck th 4000 plus friends on facebook, cause I honestly dont talk to every single one of them. Im not even friendly in th first place, so isnt that such an irony? Still, Im glad that I still have some close friends & very few ones that I can really click with, or those who I can tell almost everything to. But its still hard in a way, cause friends come & go. One moment, we can talk about anything in th world & th next moment, its like theres nth to talk about. Maybe there are things to talk about, but either one of us is just not in th mood. Or maybe, just not interested in th conversation anymore. So if that happens, its not supposed to be call friend anymore right? More to acquaintance or something like that, idk? Haha. What nonsense am I spouting? I dont even know whats my point. Hahahaha! Okay okay. Hmm, even if we were to click, we can never totally understand each other. Each of us have our own different mindset & beliefs anyway, so I guess thats how things work. Opposites attract? Haha.

So my point is, Im seriously not like how people think I am. No one can understand me completely, cause I myself dont know me. One moment I can be so hyper / keep nonsense-ing & prangai so childish, which is th total opposite of how I look like, yet another moment I can be such a bitch. Yes, I do talk behind people's back whenever Im unhappy. Im quite rude. Im sarcastic. I can be so blunt & straightforward, and its only sometimes that I spare a thought of people's feelings. I say what I have in mind, as much as I try to 'filter' it. I do insult others. In other words, Im ugly on th inside. Haha. Pathetic much? Im like slowly revealing my true colours so that people who claim that they know me will actually realise what type of person I am. And its up to them if they still wanna befriend this kind of person, cause I think Im not a good friend afterall. Who needs this kind of friend anyway right? Like I dont even deserve to be called a friend. Not to forget, I am selfish too.

I is sad to be th person that I am now. Th arrogance & all th negative characteristics that I have is just fucking ugly. I dont like. Seriously. But I dont believe in trying to be someone whom Im not either, so what can I do? I guess this is how I am. I dont go around, pretending to be friendly when Im know that Im not. I dont go around smiling at people cause thats just not th way I am. And I dont befriend just anyone cause I believe in this thing ; You dont make friends, you earn them. In other words, I just dont like to pretend or maybe, Im just insecure. Forget it.

Bottomline is, I just dislike th way that I am now & Im not a good friend. Ive changed, I guess?

To all th people who have been hurt with my harsh words or bluntness, Im sorry. And those who have been my friend, thank you for whatever that youve dont for or to me, be it good or bad. Random much? Haha, sape tau besok aku mati ke ape. Klau aku tak banyak dosa tkpe jugak. Hahaha.

Toodloons.

Hello wello.

Outs with Ateeqs & Dayana, since Ateeqs wanna borrow my lappy to do dunno what. Smth to do with her msn thingy. So yeah. Singgah to Sentosa also cause theres this pakcik Jujat's birthday celebration. Nothing much, cause macam tkd pape. Not as though I even know any of them anyway. So yeah? Haha.

Anyway, I dont know what th fuck is wrong with me again. I guess Im just a bad friend when it comes to this. I know I shouldnt have reacted that way, since I thought that I have 'lots of patience'. But I guess no, I dont. I hate to handle this kind of situation cause I know that I cant. I dont have that patience to talk with ____ people slowly or whatsoever. More to I'll just snap & give up, then just let them do whatever they want. See how useless I am? Haha. Tkle harap langsung. I get irritated easily with stubborn people who just wont listen, especially when th person is _____. And that makes me a hypocrite too, cause Im one of them. I know how stubborn I can be, till one of my friend said that my stubborn-ness is like "ade satu bangunan duduk atas kpale". Yes, thats how fucking stubborn I am. Then again, I think that Im just being unreasonable. She just want to ____ & I could have just allow her to do that. And after that, da. End of story. Ape susah right? Urgh! I guess I really am unreasonable & just now, I got too carried away by my emotions. Tsk.

But then again, forget it. Fuck this shit. Bnde da lepas anyway. Im aware of how she dislike sensitive people & I think Im starting to be one. So if anything were to happen in th future, I must understand why. Hoho. Bottomline is, Im not a good friend. Or maybe, I shouldnt even be called a friend. Lalalala~

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Yeayo.

Went to Arena just now to play pool for 2 hours plus, since Izdi will be off to Korea later on. So called like last gathering ke outing gitu laa kan. Was supposed to meet them at around 11 plus, but I didnt join them for breakfast. So, just met them later on which was around 1 plus. Th pool-ing session was okay, though it was rather slow. Hahaha. But overall, fun. It was raining when we ended th game & unfortunately, none of us had an umbrella with us. So, used Zoe's jacket or smth to cover. Hehehe. Bus-ed to interchange, then th rest head to Bugis while I meet Hakim pat Mac.

As expected, Kin kacau, blablabla. Mati mati tknk caye yg theres nth between us. Just kawan okay? Tsk. Was supposed to teman him go polyclinic or rather, met him after that cause he had planned smth. But tak jadi cause hes lazy to go poly, so yeah. What do you expect from a pig? Hoho. So, makan at Burger King, then off to their tempat lepak pat some RC. Then just spent th rest of th time there. Overall, it was okay though I was still awkward & not used to th environment. Laen uh. Haha. Okay, malas nk go into more details. So, thats about it I guess? Great day, nevertheless.

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Oh ya, I doubt I'll be uploading th pics pat fb. So kalau nak, mintk okay? Haha.

Toodloons peepos.

I think hes trying to pull me back into his life. I need to be strong.

And no, I wont fall for you again.

Holla.

Shall update about my raye-ing with friends. Apparently, went raye-ing for 3 days last week. Th Bishan one have been updated, so shall update about th BBQ friends & Jurongsec friends raye outing. Both were okay, though there were only like 6 of us or so. But overall, it was enjoyed.

Met at Ateeqs house arnd 12 plus ke 1 gitu. Then head to Jurong, before going to Yishun, Serangoon & Hougang. Didnt managed to catch th last train, so we cabbed home. Haha, I seriously dont know what else to say cause I forgot th things that took place actually. So, just let th pictures do th talking okay?

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On Friday, went raye-ing with Jurongsec friends. Was supposed to be on Thursday, but it was postponed to Friday instead. Which means, I didnt go to th Jwps raye-ing. Its all guys anyway, so yeah. Would be kinda awkward.

Anyway, head to Bukit Batok first, then th Jurong houses & lastly, Ewe's house at Pandan. Ames didnt join us after her house cause she need to study for her A's. And we didnt go to Hajar's cause not enough time. I guess we started kinda late? Haha, but its okay. Had much fun at Ewe's cause its th only place where we really camwhore alot. Not to forget, her room so gerek. Hahaha. Th strawberry dipped in chocolate was yummeh. Hoho. So yeah, thats about it? Pics shall do th talking.

As usual, th rest of th pics can be found at facebook yo.

I doubt I'll be raye-ing again after this week cause da not in th mood? Haha. Yay, another 2 weeks of holiday.

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Toodloons.

Hoho.

Went raye-ing with Bishan people yesterday. Was supposed to meet at Tampines interchange at 1330, but I went out of th hse arnd 1 gitu. Haha, hebat eh? Biase jugak, lambat sentiase. Anw, Dayana joined us abit later cause smth cropped up. So yeah. Met Wati & Izsi at Pioneer cause they bounce to Joo Koon, stakat nak aircon pnye pasal. I also travel to Pioneer psl nk aircon. Hehe, panas oi. :P

So, trained all th way to Tampines. At Lakeside, Ain joined us & Zoe joined at Clementi. Reached Tampines around 2 plus gitu. Meet th rest, then head to Hazmi's crib. After that Anati's at Bedok. Then down to mine, Dayana, Ain & Wati at Jurong West. Shall not say much, other than th fact that th day was really great & enjoyed. Hoho.

Let pics do th rest of th talking okay? (Pics are in random order. Malas nk susun. Hehe)

Macam biase jugak, th rest of th pics can be found at facebook of th people who had camera yesterday.

Anyway, Ive yet to upload th pics of raye-ing with BBQ peeps. Malas oi. Haha, dahlaa bnde uploader ni satu satu cekik darah. Klau maseh puase, agaknye da lame batal. Chey bbual mcm paham. HAHA. Soon laa okay. Bile rajin nnt boleh upload. Ataupn bile tengah good mood ke internet connection tak gile.

Sile sabar menanti yo.

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Sidetrack siket.

Brought my pet to vet just now, cause hes not feeling well. Owner tercontoh sungguh aku ni eh? Haha. Chey takla. Teman-ed Hakim to polyclinic cause he need to take mc again. After that, head to JP Banquet to mencekik. Saw Syayie & Ayim. Jalan-jalan & stuff, then jmpe them cause Hakim nak balek dengan Ayim. Okay da. Hahaha. Tkd maknenye pn bbual psl ni in th first place. Haha.

Okay bye. Cuaca best. Tido pn cantek.

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