Im suppose to be asleep since like few hours back but th thought of you just filled my mind. I miss you. Like really a lot, in actual fact. I see no harm in letting you know about it. So I did. I dont expect any reply from you, neither did I expect what you replied me. But I guess I'll not ponder over it that much cause I really know what I want to achieve at th end of th day, which is to get over you.

Though I know that you may not feel th same way as I do, Im glad that I did told you how I felt. Im not expecting you to even miss me back cause I know theres a distance between us. Yes, this distance like we're friends but strangers at th same time kind of thing? How can you possibly care when you dont show or even ask me what Im doing? You have no idea what Im feeling / what Ive been up to / whats on my mind. And how can you possibly still love me when we rarely contact each other? Th only times that we actually do communicate with one another was when we need smth or you tegur-ing me at msn out of randomness. Even so, th conversation doesnt even last for more than 10 minutes. So tell me, how is it even possible? Is this how people love others? Haha, amusing much? Th truth is, you dont really love me as much as you think that you do. Seriously. Maybe you just miss having me around or you miss whats in th past or smth like that. But th fact is, you dont love me. So stop acting like you do or stop claiming that you do cause if you really do, you will really care. I dont know which part of not-contacting-unless-theres-anything show that you actually cared. Weird isnt it?

You asked me to do you a favour & give you some time to settle some things first. I can give you all th time that you want or need but in th mean time, please do this for me. Please do sort out your thinking. Know what you want & know what or how you really feel towards me cause like Ive mentioned many times, I dont feel your love for me, as you claim. I guess I have to trust my heart on this cause I believe that if its not real / not there, I cant feel it with my heart. And thats exactly what Im feeling now, which is nothing. I dont even know why Im even asking you to sort out your thinking when all these doesnt even matter anymore. Hahaha. Tsk.

Okay, shall stop here. Gonna eat soon, then get ready for school. I know Ive been on this topic for like so many times but whatever? This is where I pen down my thoughts or feelings. So I guess what other people think or feel doesnt matter right? And at th end of th day, Im th one who is going to be affected by all these right. Okay, I dont know what nonsense Im talking about. Pardon me for my atrocious english cause my grammar really sucks. Hahaha, really. Nyett.

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