Right now, Im more sure than ever of your feelings towards me cause it really shows & I can tell. In other words, its obvious enough that you dont love me anymore cause th way you treat me is just so different & youre cold towards me, seriously. A sign? I guess so.

I finally understood / get what youve been trying to tell me all these while when you said that you dont love me as much. True enough, as time goes by, it reveals everything slowly. And indeed, these little things like th way you talk to me or th frequency of you contacting me or th effort of doing as what you claim, plays a part which will prove if what you said are true. After all, action speaks louder than words right? I dont see / feel it when you said that you love me & such. But vice versa, I did. Then I thought, it might be true after all that when you said all your feelings had fade & its time for me to accept th fact & grow up. Next step? Let go & move on.

Thinking back, its funny that I took so long to knock some sense into my head although Ive seen this coming & he had been giving me hints about it so many times & at some point of time, he told me straight to my face. I guess Im in denial state & I cant accept th fact yet, since I expected a lot from what we had / part of my happiness is by being with him & partly, its all thanks to my stubborn-ness. Haha.

Cant deny th fact that I do miss him at times but thinking about all that he had done to me, I doubt its even worth it anymore. As much as I love him, Im pretty sure that being away from him will somehow or rather change my heart or th feelings I had for him will fade eventually. Not that I dont love him, but why hold on when its already one-sided right? But I cant guarantee that I will completely forget him cause I believe that hes still a part of me, no matter what. But if we're meant to be together, he will come back eventually. If he dont, then we're just not fated. But ultimately, he will be an experience that I wont forget.

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So if you get what I mean, you should know what Im trying to say. Haha. Ive failed letting go / moving on many times but I hope that this time, I will succeed. Even if I fail again, I will keep trying until I managed to do so cause deep down, I know how weak I am when it comes to him & obviously he knows my weaknesses. But dont worry, Ive survived all this shit that I had for th past 5 years & I believe Im a tough girl. Hehe. So, just stay tune.

And I believe Im stronger than this.

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