" Somehow tonight, my mind is full of thoughts. I don't know why either. Maybe it's because of the questions that were brought up to me by my friends. Most of them were asking whether am i going to wait for her, or am i going to just give up halfway. Some even said stuffs that didn't even come across my mind.

To be honest, i'd wish i knew the answers myself. I've already spent these few days thinking about it and i still haven't found the answers to those questions. Yes, i do love you and yes, i do wish to be the guy who brings happiness to you every single day. The feeling i get when i am with you, is unexplainable. If i have to explain in a word or so, i would simply just put in two words, pure happiness. Hehe.

Sadly, at the same time doubts do appear. Doubts like whether i could live up to your expectations, and how am i going to make that sweet smile of yours to stay every single day. Hmm, honestly i don't care what others think of you. They don't know you like i do. They thought you're just some normal or even typical girl, but they thought wrong. You're more than that. You're near to perfection in my eyes. Let them say what they want to, it won't matter. Cause at the end of the day, it'll be me who will be chasing you, not them.

Saying these ain't enough. These sayings must be accompanied by actions of care and concern, which is what i've been trying to show you all this while. But somehow, they are just not enough to reach you. And that's sad.

always dreamt of us together, sitting, holding hands while watching the sunset. Yes, it sounds like i'm in some fantasy world but so what if i am, it's me that i am talking about, not you. Everyone can critisize and say whatever they want, but in the end i'll still be dreaming and not caring what other people might say about it. Sigh, god knows how am i feeling right now. Day in day out, i keep thinking what's the missing piece that he has and i don't. That missing piece surely meant a lot to you, till to the point that you are holding back and not letting it go. He must be a lucky guy to have gotten your attention, and care and concern. I wonder has he realised that.

Hmm, if i were him, i would surely treasure it and try my best not to ever make you frown or make a single tear drops, not even for a second. Oh well, life for me right now do sucks and is unfair.

Like i said previously, i did everything sincerely but yet i am in the losing end. Sigh, i hope this beautiful nightmare will end soon. And i hope the ending will be a happy one, not for me but for you. Yes, for you. Because at the end of the day, i just wish and want to see you smiling ever so widely and happily.

Hee. Till then. "