" Sigh, it's been a frustrating week. Everything doesn't seem to be working out for me. Apart from missing in front goal, I felt terrible.
Sigh, maybe it's because of that 'thing' huh. Oh well. I guess some stuffs just can't be force to work out. At least i gave it a shot even though i know that it's an impossible task. I wonder what made me go for it in the first place. Hmm, no use wondering about it now, since it already took place. But then again, my mind is refusing to accept this.
Yes, it's true that i sometimes felt like i am being used after i know the situation that i'm in. But then again, all i want to do is to make you smile widely and sincerely again. Most would have said that it's dumb and would give up when it comes to making someone happy while he's not. But that's the thing, i am different from those people.
My feelings are sincere, and i really wish to see you happy again. It really does hurt to know that you're still into him, but i don't mind as long as i see that you're happy, honest.
You are really special, you make me smile when i frown, you make me relax when i am stress, you make me feel on top of the world when i'm below the ground.
Yes, you're like everything that i wanted and wished for, but sadly i guess we're just meant to be friends.
I really feel down knowing that i can never be the guy you dreamed for, but at least i could be the guy who's always there when you need someone.
Hmm, I hope you won't see this post as something you could read and forget about, but maybe just as a reminder on how much you meant to me and that i'll always be here if you need someone?
I guess by now, you might think i'm one of those sensitive guys huh? Hmm, maybe i am, maybe i am not. I'll leave that to you. But whatever it is, you said you wanted to know what i'm thinking, so here it is. Just waiting for you to read it. I hope after reading this, you'll at least smile a bit. Hahaha.
Till here then. "
- S T