"Like every fairytale, it has to have endings, and to every endings are happy endings.

Sadly, mine didn't turn out like those of fairytales. How i wish it would.

Sigh, it is very demoralising and very sad. It just didn't turn out like what i wanted.

Like most people would say, not everything will be done your way, that's parts and parcels of life. Yes, i do know that but i am sick of that line. Why do i always end up at the losing side when i was sincere in everything that i did? It just doesn't seem fair.

I know that i suddenly sounded like a kid, but how would you feel if you were in my shoes? I bet you would feel the same way as i do.

Hmm, now it sounds like i am pushing all the blame to you, but nope. I am not doing that and neither am i going to. I needed someone to just hear what i have to say.

In times like this, i wish that person would be you. But if i do that, i would be making you feel bad and guilty, and obviously i don't wish to do that. So yeah, through these journal entries are how i express myself in a way.

Yes, i did say we are meant to be friends earlier, but part of me just do not wish to accept that. Even though it's only been months since we met, i am already having this unexplainable feelings towards you. I know this is not logic but then again, i bet no human or scientist can ever explain how love works. And you know that.

Oh well, enough said about that. Hmm, here i am, listening to Ne-Yo's Part Of The List over and over again. Such a beautiful song don't you agree? *smiles*

Reminds me a lot about you, haha. Especially those first few meetings we had together. I shall always remember them. Oh yeah, not forgetting my first impressions of you and stuffs. Haha. Those were the great days i shall say?

Hmm, too bad that things have kind of change. Gahh, i should stop, really. Whatever it is, i hope you'll find happiness soon. If you need someone to talk to, you can always get to me. I'll always have the pleasure of bringing those sweet smiles back to your face. Hee.

Hmmm. I guess that's all for now. Till then. "